November 6th, 2005
|01:23 pm - *gasp* I'm actually UPDATING!|
Two weeks ago...
Roy's (one of my guy friends) girl friend's friend told him that his girl friend wanted to break up with him last Friday/Saturday. He was REALLY depressed about it. So depressed that when he was first told that, he considered commiting suicide. He carries around a knife. He could've easily done it and none of the people who I was hanging out with would've known until someone had to go home (like an hour/two hours later).
I'm part of the reason his girl friend wanted to break up with him.
This punk, Ian (not to be confused with one of my guy friends)...he told Roy's girl friend that Roy was making out with me. I know Roy had a girl friend he loves and treated like a goddess (yes, he still loves her, I think). He talked about her every day I saw him. Ian insulted me but saying that I would do something like that. Insulted is too weak of a word to describe how I feel towards that kid. I'm shaking with anger right now. Most of you know me and know how hard it is for me to get angry. That should give you some inclination to how freaking angry I am.
Yeah, I was to his house Saturday and Sunday and he was feeling a lot better. I was so relieved because I was scared for him. I've never heard of anyone I've known commit or contemplet suicide. It was scary.
Yeah, so now Roy and I are dating. Oh, the pure irony.
We started dating on Halloween and he's so awesome. I'm so lucky to have him. He's so kind and gentle and caring. I'm so lucky.
Oh this Wednesday, Roy got into a fight with the Ian previously mentioned. Ian punched him in the face and he just went with it. He didn't even react. The only movement was in his head. After Ian punced him, he said, "Are you quite finished?" Ian just kind of stuttered and then went away. It's awesome. :)
On Wednesday thru Friday, I was on a college trip. Now I know what kind of colleges I want and/or like.
And one more thing...11 days until the Goblet of Fire comes out!
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Dance Dance by Fall Out Boy
August 18th, 2005
|04:42 pm - I'm FINALLY UPDATING!|
Yes, my livejournal has fallen into disrepair, which is always fun.
So, I had my sixteenth birthday three days ago and my sixteenth birthday party four days ago. So in other words, I'm sixteen now and all that that entails. What does that entail anyway? I know, driver's license, more freedom with dating (like that matters...) and looking at colleges. I'm nervous about the driver's lincense (permit...whatever) and the looking at colleges. I'm also nervous about school. But, of course, all my nervousness is stupid.
When was the last time I wrote in here? Woo! May! Yes!
So, most of the summer I've been hanging out with guys and playing Dungeons and Dragons. The sad thing is...it's really fun. I'm turning into more of a dork, some one help!
I feel so weird. I have a crush on one of my guy friends (Andrea knows who it is...) and he has a girl friend. I'm trying to get myself to stop liking him (and the school-depravitis is spreading) and it isn't working. Stupid hormones. Why won't they EVER stay under control?
So, yeah, that's my life os far this summer. Nothing that exciting and lots of cake. Which reminds me, I want some.
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Sims 2 music
May 9th, 2005
April 26th, 2005
|09:55 pm - The beginning of the week always sucks|
Two weeks ago, I think, my week sucked from Monday to the middle of Wednesday. I don't remember why, but it just did. Coicincedience? I think NOT!
So on Sunday the 24th, my youth group was doing the service, so I was really stressed out about that. My youth group was also doing a spagetti dinner, which added to my stress. I didn't do really that much in it anyway. I just watched people crush garlic and thaw meat in a pot (that was fun) and made salad.
Anyway, so on to my breakdown...
I was really snapping at this one person in my youth group and I have no idea why. He told me off (which I think I deserved). I spend the rest of the night with the money box by the door, essentially in a corner. I was starting to cry every two minutes and I had no idea why. Ben, the kid that took me to Homecoming twice and the kid that I asked out (he said no, if you don't remember), came and I didn't get to talk to him as much as I would have liked. That just added to my state of self-doubt. Courtney's boyfriend Mark also came, so then I was feeling...well, I don't know, but it wasn't good.
I was reading 'The Restaurant at the End of the Universe'(sequal to 'The Hitch-hiker's Guide to the Galaxy') and Karen walked by, smacking the book playfully into my face. And that was the straw that broke the camel's back. I pressed the book into my face and took deep calming breaths to stop the tears (I didn't really want comforted, which is what i would have gotten in my church, I just wanted to cry), but Murphy's Law was not on my side (Murphy's Law is like "If anything can go wrong, it will") because Karen came in a couple seconds later and moved the book out of my face to see my tears. Then she took the money box from me and I went to the girls bathroom. That's my wonderful story about how the beginning of my weeks sucked. I hate Murphy's Law.
So anyway, that's pretty much it. 80 days and I'll be the happiest girl on the universe (Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince comes out in 80 days)!
Current Mood: at the world
Current Music: Arwen's Song sung by Liv Tyler
April 11th, 2005
OK, you get two journal entries since I haven't updated since February.
Question for smart people.
How do you put a link in an entry to another document thingy?
If anyone understands that, please answer!
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Some song that no one listens to, but is really poetic
Yes, I know I've been pretty dormant. But, hey, I'm writing now, so JOY!
Wow...now Livejournal has like military time and stuff...
Nothing much has happened in my life. I haven't updated because nothing truly exciting has happened. And I'm lazy.
I'm going on a diet. Not that I ever wasn't on a diet, but now I'm on a new one. I'm not eating bread, sweets, or fried foods and doing 100 crunches everyday for about two weeks. I'm also going to drink lemon water in the morning because it's good for you.
Today I got yelled at by my French teacher. My friend was taking a test - I didn't know she was (I thought she was just getting instructions for a worksheet or something) - and she didn't know what husband was, so I said it in French and my teacher went crazy. And I think she's mad at me. And I feel stupid.
I'm also on my period, which normally makes me happy because I'm usually really PMSing before it starts, but I'm PMSing now and it's weird.
I'm reading "Hitch-hiker's Guide to the Galaxy." It's a really funny book and a really good pick-me-up, which I need right about now.
My feelings are really confused. I like Nathan, but I don't want to. It's not fair! I'm so confused and stuff and I just really want a boy friend that meets my standards, but of course, the ones that do don't like me like that. Love sucks, sometimes.
Cortney was in lunch today (for no reason) and I don't think I'll ever get away from jealousy. I hate feeling that way, but I can't help it. It's like my Nathan feeling. It sucks also. But it sucks all the time (unlike love).
Why can't life be a little tinsy bit fair to us little people who want to be loved, huh? I hate irony. Unless it's in stories, because then it's funny.
So I think that's about it. I'll see ya in two weeks!
Current Mood: indifferent
Current Music: Mr. Brightside by The Killers
February 14th, 2005
OK, now I'm really MAD.
I pressed tab and what I was typing for the past half an hour went away. I hate my life.
Anyway, the bad stuff in my life right now...
1. Satanism. It's making me feel underprotected and alone. It's making me scared for my friends. It's making me scared, period. It's making me wonder if the real world just has more of this utter crap that I have no chance in defending myself with. It makes me feel like the world's too big for me.
2. Dave Mule still has a crush on my and it's getting really annoying. I know that I really shouldn't complain about it because I'm lucky someone likes me, but I've given him every hint that I don't like him like that and he just won't take them. I'm thinking of seriously asking Mr. Veshio if I can move my seat in Math so he won't be staring at me all period.
3. It's Valentine's Day, the single most "we-have-boy-friends-and-you-don't-ha-ha" day in the world. I hate love. There's just too many rules to make someone fall in love (not lust) with you.
On a happier side note...
I got The Lord of the Rings, the Return of the King soundtrack today! Squee!
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Through with Love by Destiny's Child
January 30th, 2005
*cringes* Wow, I forgot to update in the middle of this month. Please forgive me!
Anyway, so my life is still being dominated by my love life. It sucks. Majorly sucks. Yes, I'm having lots of fun with incomplete thoughts.
Oh, yes, and I ruined all chances of me and Ben J. dating. Not that I had much of a chance anyway. Because of my exaggerations. That's something you need to know about me if you don't know that already. I make things bigger than they seem and I overstate some people's qualities. Just in Cortney and Julia though, probably because I see them a lot.
Anyway, so on with my story. I told Ben J. that I over-exaggerated when I told him that Cortney had been bothering me about asking him out, which I was doing during that time. And I told him that I over-exaggerated about over-exaggerated and that I wouldn't ask someone out unless I knew it was right. He probably doesn't believe me. My love life sucks like a pig in the morning sun.
In the non-love related part of my life...
The world is not fair and I'm never gonna look right.
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Mulan Playing in the backround
December 29th, 2004
Oh, yeah, I also got 3 CDs: U2's "How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb," Sarah MgLachlen's "Afterglow," and Destiny's Child's "Destiny Fulfilled"
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Into The West
I'm bored and have nothing better to do, so I'm gonna update.
Let's see...Keith asked me out, but I don't like him that way. And Nathan doesn't care that I would just be using him to cancel out some of my estrogen (sp?), which makes me not want to go out with him more. That's just like he's saying "Yeah, you can have another boy friend if you're going out with me." It's horribly disgusting about what some boys would do to get a girl friend. And I realized that I really don't want a boy friend. Dang hormones.
On Christmas I got:
2. A $30 Gift Card for Simon Malls
3. The Lost Road and Fall of the Numenor by J.R.R. Tolkien
4. The Return of the King by J.R.R. Tolkien
5. The Extended Editions of Lord of the Rings
6. A peach candle
7. A candle dish
8. Three clever Harry Potter pins
9. Four bumpers stickers
10. A big sticker that reads 'Naughty, Naughty, You'll get Caughty'
11. Roller Coaster Tycoon
12. Hogwarts banner
13. Lots of candy
14. The Time Turner (sqee!)
15. Girly stuff that I'll most likely never use(make-up brushes, lotion, bath gel, etc.)
I think that's all that happened in my life so far. 200-ish more days (Until the Half-Blood Prince comes out)!
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Into The West